Category: Diaversary

Letter to the Newly Diagnosed

To the newly diagnosed

With my diaversary right around the corner, I wanted to write to the newly diagnosed.

To the ones who have just had their world turned completely upside down,

I’ve been where you are.

Scared, overwhelmed, confused, angry. There must have been a mistake, right? I am healthy, I’ve never been sick, I’ve never been in the hospital. Until now. This can’t be right. I don’t even know what type one diabetes is.

But, there wasn’t a mistake. I know how you feel. Every emotion you are feeling right now, I’ve felt.

This time in your life is so fragile. You don’t know how you will ever prick your finger multiple times a day. You’re not sure how you will be able to give yourself shots. You don’t know how to count carbs. & then there is your family. so worried about you & so confused on how to help you cope with this new diagnosis & how to cope themselves.

I’ve to been where you are at this exact moment. I’ve lived it.

At first, everything just seems really unbearable.

You will look at food & scream because you don’t know how many carbs are in your meal & you just want to eat & not worry about insulin or numbers. You will refuse to check your sugar because this just isn’t happening. It can’t be.

You will distance yourself from your friends, because how can you expect them to understand something you don’t even understand yourself. You will be embarrassed to give yourself a shot in public because this is still so fresh & how can others watch you stick yourself when you can hardly bare to watch yourself give an injection. The days seem really hard right now & you will feel like you won’t be your normal self ever again.

You will feel defeated & exhausted.

But trust me when I say, you will find yourself again & you will be okay. This will not break you.

Just keep going. Somehow you will keep going.

You will eventually be able to look at food & know exactly how many carbs are in the meal. You will be able to prick your fingers without flinching. You will make your way back to your friends & they will learn how to help you & they will be your biggest supporters. You won’t think twice about giving yourself an injection in public because you aren’t embarrassed of what you have to do to stay alive anymore.

It will still be hard some days, but you know you will make it through. You will still have bad days, but they will sting a little less. You will make the best of what you’ve been handed. You will learn how to take care of yourself & you will love yourself again, diabetes & all.

You will find that you are far stronger than you ever thought & you are capable of anything.

So I know this seems really scary right now, but you will make it & you will be okay. It may take a little while, but you’re going to be okay. Do not let this define you. You are so much more than this diagnosis.

From someone who has been exactly where you are just hold on,

Kylie


living a fulfilling life and going after my dream

Living a Fulfilling Life and Going After My Dream

Living a Fulfilling Life and Going After My Dream

Rachael Baker

Today marks 10 years since I was diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes.

Since that day, for the past 10 years and for every day ahead of me, all throughout the day, I have to test my blood glucose, think, calculate and inject insulin to maintain my life. No days off, 365 days a year, 7 days a week, 24 hours a day. A day off for me means I don’t make it to the end of the day.

Whilst diabetes is ridiculously complex and hard to understand if you don’t experience it, it is important to know I did nothing to get it and I can not fix it! This is the difference between type 1 and type 2 diabetes.

Type 1 is currently incurable.

So I have spent the past decade accepting that I can only spend every waking and sleeping moment working to make sure I stay alive. The balancing act of diabetes is affected by every daily activity and it is honestly so hard, I have spent days in tears, days where my blood glucose is so high I can barely stay conscious, and nights where my blood glucose is so low I can’t move enough to reach the lollies on my bedside table.

This is scary stuff and some days I don’t want to get out of bed and battle it and other days I don’t want to go to sleep just in case I don’t wake up, but despite this, I have never let it stop me from doing anything. I have kept up with my peers through every step of my life.

Being diabetic, whilst hard and extremely challenging at times, is amazing. It is an opportunity to continually grow and strengthen, as I face challenge after challenge and decision after decision, and still manage to see the next day.

I am healthy and continually strive to ensure my diabetes is optimally managed, whilst appreciating it will never be perfect – this has taken a long time to realize and I am so eager to help others do the same.

I am currently studying a post graduate course in Diabetes Education and Management whilst working full time in a Pediatric Emergency Department as a Registered Nurse. I volunteer as a Diabetes Educator at Camp Diabetes and help children and adolescents cope with everyday activities and teach them that they too can live a normal life.

I can easily lose my life if I slip up at any given second, but I can also live a long and healthy life and do everything a normal person can. This gives me the greatest perspective on life and makes me live to the fullest and appreciate everyday.

It has given me a passion and a dream to be a diabetes educator so I can motivate and teach other diabetics to achieve their full potential as well and I am now so close this dream. I cannot wait for what the next 10 years holds.


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