Dear Brand New D Mom,
I know when you looked at your child for the very first time the day they were born you never expected a day like the day they told you your child was sick and they’d never get better. I know you had hopes and dreams and Type 1 Diabetes has seemingly taken away all the aspirations you had for your child.
I know you are scared.
You feel like you no longer have control of your life. You can’t take away the pain that is inflicted daily to your child. You in no way can make this better.
You didn’t cause it, but you can’t fix it. That in itself has left you feeling broken and useless.
You feel weak because you are broken, but I’d like to tell you that it’s just simply not the case. You have a strength in you that you didn’t know was there. Type 1 Diabetes isn’t who your child is and they will continue to amaze you daily.
You will begin to realize your child will be as amazing as you’d always dreamed WITH Type 1 Diabetes.
You are a fighter and so is your child. Type 1 is a diagnosis that breaks you in a way no one but D parents understand. I am now a year into the fight that you are just beginning. I remember being glued to Google and Calorie King, logging endlessly doses and carb intakes and feeling like that was the most control I had at the time.
My heart ached with every dose of insulin I put into my child.
I spent countless nights sobbing into my pillow, hiding in the bathroom letting the water run to mask the my broken cries. We all go through those nights. We all sleep with our newly diagnosed child close by just to make sure we don’t miss a low, to try and protect them from the demons that cloud our ever waking and sleeping moments.
Let me be one of the people who tell you that YOU ARE GOING TO MAKE IT.
This is hard, but you are a Warrior Mom alongside your Warrior Child. You don’t see it in yourself right now, but its there and when the dust settles you will see that this fight never became easier,
YOU BECAME STRONGER. From one D Mom to another, YOU GOT THIS!
– Ashlea Mello